Finding Grace in the Messy Parts of Healing

I want to share something personal with you today — something that shaped the woman I am and the work I feel so deeply called to do.

Last year, my mom passed away. She was bipolar and schizophrenic, and our relationship was… complicated.

As a little girl, all I ever wanted was to make my mom happy. I worked hard to be the "good" girl — good grades, a job, staying out of trouble — always hoping that if I did everything right, I’d finally feel enough. I just wanted to be loved.

But no matter how much I did, it often felt like it was never enough.

In later years, I took care of her as best I could, but there came a point when I had to cut off communication to protect my own well-being. This was not easy for me.

When she passed, I felt relief — relief that her suffering was over — and then waves of anger, guilt and sadness followed. I wondered if I should have done more, even though she didn’t want the help I tried to give.

If I hadn’t done the deep personal and spiritual work of acceptance, releasing old baggage, allowing and releasing emotions, and learning to give myself grace and space, I don’t know how I would’ve made it through this.

Healing doesn’t mean we don’t feel pain — it means we allow the pain to move through us without letting it define us.

That’s why I’m so passionate about the work I do. Because so many of us carry the weight of trying to be enough — for our parents, our partners, our careers — and it’s exhausting.

But you don’t have to carry it. You deserve the space to process, release, and heal. You deserve grace.

If any of this resonates with you — if there’s old pain, guilt, or self-judgment you’re ready to let go of — I invite you to take the first step. Whether that’s through the work we do together or simply by giving yourself permission to feel what needs to be felt.

Sending you love and light.

Jessica

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